Why???

I can never really understand why things turn out the way they did but they did. I guess I really have a knack for messing things up in my life. I, myself get sick and
tired of me sometimes and I really appreciate you, my friend, for putting up with this troubled soul up unto this very moment. I know you yourself don't understand and
really... understanding is not a way to deliverance. Trying to understand can even be a hindrance. Loving is the way... so it seems. just your presence, though, not physical just maybe your very essence can make a wayward pal turn his back towards
home. And home is where i'm bound to right now.